"What only gets stronger the longer it lives?
What pays you back tenfold the more that you give?
Some say it's blind, some say it's true,
Some just simply say, 'I... feel this... for you.'"

Well, this journal is long over-due for a locking (really, semi-friends only because most of my SNSD stuff is public, but yeah).

Why have I chosen to lock it now? It contains journal entries back from when I was in 7th grade; I've graduated high school now and it wouldn't be right for some random stranger to be looking through all that. And to be honest it'd be kind of embarrassing because most of what I said back then, I don't believe/feel now. And the stuff that doesn't have that.... is just plain ol' embarrassing. I was young, you know? I relished the thought of using big and colorful text D;

Well, that's my broad answer, why I should've locked it a long time ago.

Here's what led me to finally lock it: Apparently some random people link to my journal. I know I went WTF?! too. I've always known that by having it open random people would stumble upon, but really now, I could understand them linking if I made graphics or uploaded music *FREQUENTLY*, but I don't do any of that. I'm fandom's dead weight. I don't know what they linked to, and it's probably nothing to worry about, but to be sure I locked all the past entries I feel that I should have. I don't want random people who don't know me to look at entries with my personal thoughts and linking them to their friends so they can laugh at me. I'm paranoid I know, but I should be because something like it happened to me before.

Fandoms currently very into:
Girls' Generation
Resident Evil
Disney (mostly princesses)
Victoria's Secret

Fandoms in general:
Merlin
Prince of Tennis
Tenimyu
Super Junior
Naruto
Final Fantasy
Kingdom Hearts

I'm really not as much of a bitch as it seems, so don't be intimidated :x

Visit my profile for more about me. I've also backdated my original intro post. It's friends-locked, but if you wanna check it out after you've added me to see what a huge fucking dork I was back then it's right over here~

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My PSCI professor graded my research paper and I have a 97%.

That's a straight A (rather than an A-).

I HAVE A 4.0 YOU GUYS AKLLSJAKLJSKLAJDKLSKLD!!!21312324`

In other news I learned how to make GIFs. I GIFed Sunny and her hot bod in SNSD's Black Swan interlude from their Japan tour. I have yet to learn how to make them under 500kb or w/e tumblr's limit is so ): It's like 7MB so I'll put it under a cut.

( A 4.0 ;~; I AM CRYING TEARS OF JOY )

So that's my story of the day.

Which KINDA SUCKED considering I wanted to look over all the powerpoints for my PSCI class before finals. Oh well, I took it yesterday (my last final!) and I took that PSCI final out to dinner and made it my boo. Annnnnnnnd in normal people terms I mean: I aced that test.

So! A few days ago I was able to download 2nd Season Hyouteimyu from tenimyutopia since I've slowly been getting back into TeniPuri related stuff. And since Hyoutei is my favorite team and has my favorite character I wanted to watch it as soon as possible. And you guys: 2nd season HAS A TAKI. You don't even know how happy that makes me. Or maybe you do? I don't know, I can't read minds.

I ended up watching and screencapping some cute moments from backstage. And since today is my first real day of Winter break I'll be watching the musical itself very soon. Hooray! IDK if I'll screencap that though. Probably not. Anyway, onto the caps!

( Lots and lots and LOTS of pictures underneath this cut )

So I've slowly started regaining my love for TeniPuri. I watched the available backstages of TeniMyu 2nd season and The Beginning DVD, the latter which I'll probably screencap and commentate because being a thespian and an ex-tennis player I really appreciated getting to see all the work that goes into prep for the show. Plus I have some horror stories to tell about my JV and Varsity years of high school tennis, haha. I've also been rereading a bunch of linkandluigi PoT fic, which are even more entertaining now. I'm seriously loving everything right now, and with ShinTeni coming around the corner it'll probably come back full force.

Well anyway, onto the reason I'm posting! I finally got over the "OMG Y U NO MOVE?!" aspect of pairpuri and caved and watched some of them.

THEY ARE BRILLIANT.

I love how the Inui and Oshitari pairpuri us just 11 minutes of Hiyoshi and his lost contact. I got a new computer, so I've been lazy and pretty much only used VLC player to watch stuff, but I downloaded GOM so I can screencap. Hooray! It's only two but eh, well.

( Hiyoshi in glasses and Mini Kenya and Yuushi! )

Guess who has a swollen hand? Now, it’s not swollen because of anything cool, like I didn’t jump in front of a car to save a kitten and sprain my wrist in the process.

No, actually it’s from three straight days of 9+ hours of flailing the Wii remote. I KNOW THAT’S LIKE THE LAMEST WAY TO INJURE YOURSELF EVER. I’m like the lamest person ever.

The tennis player in me cries, but I suppose 2 hours 5 times a week will have a different effect on my arm than 25-30+ hours within the span of 3 days. That and I have a giant vein right on the inner crease thingy of my elbow and if I bend it too much it hurts and my arm swells. When I had an IV in it my arm was swollen for two days. SO FUN.

( pix or it didn't happen )

Just how stupid do you have to be to try to ram into a single turn lane when there's a fucking car pretty much parallel to you in that lane? More proof that there are some stupid people in college who don't deserve to be there. To elaborate though, my grandpa was driving me home from school and some dummy on campus who was right next to us was going 30 and tried to squeeze into the two feet of space inbetween us and THE FUCKING BUS in front of us. We didn't get hit, but it was really close. If I was the one driving I would have chased after them and given them a piece of my mind. And by that I mean tailgated them until they cried.

On a lighter note, I head out to Vegas tomorrow and register for classes today. Hooray! Right now I'm off to play Skyward Sword. Later LJ peeps~

…and then don’t give it back until you ask. AND THEN loses something.



By people I mean little sisters and by stuff I mean make-up.

I hope you get pink eye.

Dis bitch totally lost my eye brow pencil and now I have to walk around with sparse brows looking like fucking Horio and shit >:O

I need to use the lav really bad BUT EVERY FREAKING BATHROOM IN MY HOUSE IS OCCUPIED.

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This may be me with my weird hearing perception, but SooYoung's accent kind of reminds me of someone else's... Like not Korean, but kind of like Doutzen Kroes' (the Victoria's Secret Angel)? Maybe not entirely, but SooYoung's "amazing" kind of reminds me of Doutzen's intonation and stuff. I might just be crazy though.

Some samples of Doutzen speaking English if you care to compare:

So a few days ago by some miracle (or rather swelling) my left eye decided it was done having a weird crease and made itself normal! Hooray!

Except for today I woke up and it was back to normal. Boo!

My eyes are kind of weird, both my right and left eyes have a crease that goes into my socket (so I have no lid space for eyeshadow) and a light crease or two before my socket. My left non-socket eye crease is waaaaaay deeper than my right eye, however, and as a result whenever my eyes are open there's this weird flap of triangular skin that shows up. This makes eye make-up a huge pain in the ass as everything creases and you can't even see it. I don't even have enough brow space to put the eyeshadow on so it'll be visible. Boohoo ):

( pix or it didn't happen )

Well I think I may have shared a few pictures of me here on LJ, but they were all ugly, so here's some of my favorite ones! Click for the full size and stuff.

For a little background the first one was taken in November 2009 around the beginning of my Junior year in HS and a year after I snapped my left kneecap/patella in half (yeah ow). It’s one of the few pictures I like of myself (except you can see how gigantic my nose is) because I am SUPER unphotogenic. I look super derpy and gross in pictures, but the mirror tells me otherwise so I don’t know which to believe.

Well anyway, that picture is also kind of important to me because I’m not wearing any make-up. I never really cared about my looks at all until I started liking ~*boys*~. I actually decided in middle school I wouldn’t wear make-up until I felt beautiful without it… didn’t work. But it did last for quite a long while. I didn’t start regularly wearing make-up until around the second semester of my Junior year because I really liked this guy yadda yadda he turned out to be a jerk who didn’t think I was pretty either way blahblah. I guess what the point I’m trying to get at is this is probably the last picture I had before I started giving a crap about what I looked like.

I’d always known that I wasn’t that pretty, but the difference was is that I never cared before. I never really had anyone call me pretty, but I never really had anyone call me ugly either until 8th grade. And of course they didn’t even say it to my face, but it’s even worse when they talk about it 2 feet away from you and expect you not to hear. It hurt me, but those idiots probably dropped out of high school and my Freshman and Sophomore years were pretty clear of rude people who didn’t think I had any ears that could hear. But of course this still happen to me on occasions. I’m pretty sure the guy I think is cute in my science class thinks I’m ugly, but fuck him. Maybe I’m just paranoid and imagining it, but it doesn’t dwell on my mind like it used to. I guess that’s the downside to having hearing like a… something that hears well (bunnies?).

I’m not posting it here, but my 8th grade picture is completely terrible, like, I literally look like a mountain troll. But the thing about it is… I didn’t care I looked like that when I took that picture. After the whole thing with the second half of my Junior year I had a pretty bad downward spiral that ruined my Senior year. Sometimes I would go to school with a full face of foundation and still feel it was not enough. I know I reblog lots of models and all these pretty girls, but that’s not really who I compared myself to. I compared myself to the girls I saw everyday, who didn’t have a team to help them out and who wore half as much make-up as me and looked twice as beautiful. It was pretty discouraging, but I’m not the type to hate on other people so much as hate on myself (plus they were all too nice and sweet and smart and gorgeous to hate).

Basically the year I had been dreaming of was virtually miserable, which kind of leads me to my next picture. This picture was taken in May 2011 right after I checked out of high school! I think this was the first time in a long time I felt happy and didn’t care what I looked like. I can’t remember if I was crying prior to this photo or not, but I really do love it. It’s one of the very few pictures I’ve taken where I really think I look pretty, like, with me, Megan Fox, and Miranda Kerr all in one picture I was contemplating captioning it “TOO MUCH BEAUTY”. This is pretty much the face I see when I look in the mirror and it’s so hard to get it to show up on camera! I’m wearing some make-up (concealer, mascara, and powder), but I still think it was quite a step for me to go to school like that and not give a fuck kinda like I used to.

I’m no where as cute as I was in either of these pictures which I’m sad about, but I’m working on it. When I look back at pictures (especially from my Junior year) I can’t believe how I didn’t see how pretty I was. I’m no where near my DGAF state of mind 14 year old me had, but I’m working to not feel miserable just because people are idiots who can’t say things to your face.

tl;dr Everyone is a beautiful unicorn. DON’T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHER WISE D

So I never post anymore, but I still lurk around LJ every once in a while. Most of my entries are locked now, so if anyone is reading this and would like to see my entries, just drop by and say hello! I like meeting new people! And if I get to know more people who regularly use LJ I might start getting back into it and stuff. Otherwise, I'm on tumblr a lot now so you can follow me here. I mostly reblog a lot of random shit.

I don't really wanna clog up the friends pages of those who still have me as a friend, but maybe every once in a while I'll post some random thoughts here too, yeah? Like super random. Like this: I was snooping around the internet today and found this site! I am drooling right now. If anyone ever got me this I might love them forever.

Why must you be EVERYWHERE? I am never going to make it into or through grad school because of your stupid ass. Might as well not go to college and flip burgers for the rest of my life.

May it be known to everyone that I just killed a baby cricket all by myself. And yesterday I killed two spiders - one was the size of a half dollar holy crap - and a silverfish. I am a machine! All insects beware because I will find you and kill you in the most evil way possible.

Nvr 4get

I'm loving the Badfic reading that's going on at the TheSpeedGamers Star Wars marathon. The perfect way to spend such a drab day as Monday. Go check it out and donate!

In other news I have Orientation tomorrow for college. I'm super duper anxious, but hopefully it'll be fun. I'm so nervous I had a crazy dream last night where I was in the circus with the most RANDOM kids from my high school ever. Like kids I only ever see in the girls' bathroom and their siblings. THAT random. It also featured my JV tennis coach in a banana yellow track suit for some reason. It was just WEIRD. But, anyway, I know some people going so it won't be too bad for the whole time, but seriously? it lasts until 5PM and check-in starts at 8AM, so that's a large chunk of time out of my day. Actually, it's my whole day. Plus, I've been falling asleep at 2AM and waking up at 11AM. We'll see how well this works tomorrow.

I PASSED ALL MY AP TESTS!
I got a 3 on Gov and Macro (4 on Micro), but I freakin' passed!
Plus I'm going to a CSU with virtually no standards, so hopefully I'll get credit.